It’s the heart of the matter.
Now that’s the problem isn’t it? The heart is a very central part of our existence which we do not want to share with anybody. This is a problem because those feelings and sensation are the only place where we can both here and speak to god in truth.
You see you God chose this, as a very precious place some called the hiding place the secret life place were only I and he commune. This is talked about extensively in the book song of Solomon.
I suggest you read it. Oh! I forgot nobody reads the Bible today it’s mostly just lip service. Well! If you want help understanding life like I love you need to turn on the switch and start seeking after that what you really want and stop fiddling around with all the other crap.
So! It’s your choice.