The pit of despair
I find that when I discuss subjects that have deep emotion attached to them, I encounter a low spot in my life. This is especially true when it appears that there is nothing I can do about it. I call this the slippery slope of despair, which is on the edge of a great pit in which one could find themselves completely lost. It is a place where no answer will help, there is no desire,there is this immense sense that all is lost. Is this a familiar place for others as well? Do not despair, there is a hand that can reach out and lift us out of this place and set us once again on a path that will allow growth in our life, as well as purpose. These things are very important, because without them we become aimless in our walk here on earth. Sometimes I go find a place in the wilderness where I can scream out my innermost pain, and no one can hear me. But, then someone does hear and immediately sends help. There is a cry that God will hear. It comes from a place so deep within that no other ear could possibly hear it. This is where it all begins. An all consuming need that reaches outside ourselves for help. If human beings could help us then they would be able to hear, but sadly they can’t help.
This is how I met God for the very first time. I recall so clearly, as a little boy in despair, because my Mom and Dad were on the verge of splitting up. I walked up the street in the middle of the night and there was a church sitting by itself in a field. I walked over hoping to go in, but it was locked. I walked around the side to a window and saw a lighted figure inside. Not really understanding at all, I just sat down and cried my eyes out. Then I screamed out, if there is a God, would you please hear my cry and heal my family? Much later that night I walked home and went to bed. Mom and Dad never split up. I didn’t know then, but I always received my answer. In the course of my life, this type of experience has happened many times and eventually I learned where my true help comes from. This is a small example of depression and despair, I know, but to a very young child it was as big as a mountain. I could share about other such situations, but let this suffice as an example of where to get help. I would like to say that I have seen lives saved from many serious things such as death and drug addiction. In the end, they were all helped because there was a cry that man could not hear, but God could.
Great post. I have done some time in that pit myself. People just want you to get over it, but God understands. Seems it’s in the very deepest darkest places where I think God would never go that He shows up in ways I never expected…
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WOW. love, your Girl….who is trying to stay out of dispair and needed to hear that!
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